It’s not the end of the blog but..
The other day when I wrote about possibly going home, it was just an idea that could have become a plan. The way the universe works, I was just offered a way to go back (and get back on my feet) between now and next month. So…I’m going to stay another
month few days and then head back to California.
I’ve become a complainer here and I don’t like that person. My Lessons on Brazil, which started rather innocently, has become my venue for veiled (and not-so-veiled) complaints. In fact, it’s me holding back, because if I wrote a post about everything, I’d write twice as much. I didn’t start out this way, when I came here to live for the first time in 2005, everything was fine. Again, in 2009, I was fine…until the last few weeks when I felt a strong need to leave the country. This time around, since 2011, I was also fine for at least half the time I’ve been here but, in the last few months in particular, life here has been getting to me and I feel it’s changing me. Some have said that it’s likely Rio’s fault, a cidade de beleza e caos. That’s quite possible, though not entirely.
Judging from the outside looking in should be something personal and, in the best of circumstances, it should be curbed over time. I’ve been placing my version of normal on what is considered normal here and finding it doesn’t add up. Well, of course it doesn’t. Intellectually, it’s obvious, but it’s still hard to override almost 30 years of norms learned in my own country, no matter what country I compare it to.
Here’s a few of the things I’m looking forward to when I get back…
– Driving. I really, really love driving. It’s close to total freedom. Choose where to go, who to go with, all with your own soundtrack.
– Working for hours from a cafe (with outlets for my laptop) with free wi-fi and being left alone by the staff.
– Target. Ok, that’s just an example store, but the fact is I know all the kinds of things they sell there, I can get there easily and find what I want in record-time. I may not like corporate culture nor corporate dominance (over Mom & Pops) but corporate solutions are a god-send for lots of items.
– Lake Tahoe in the summer (pictured above). Awesome.
– Pacific Coast Highway 1 (pictured below). Awesome.
– Secondhand stuff, from clothes to electronics, to whatever. Craigslist…
– Health/Organic food. Trader Joes…